dead mail time once again

[paucipan]

[These are all in a pile under her pillow; they're carefully folded, and have the recipient's name on top.

...Also Plumeria's handwriting is atrocious, but it is at least legible. She tried for these okay.]

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Yeager

[paucipan]

I'm not going to mince words; if you're seeing this, I've either died stupidly or I've betrayed all of you. I'm not going to try to apologize either way; it wouldn't feel right to try and make an excuse for myself after all of this. It'd feel insulting; I accept whatever happens, and whatever comes of this.

But even so...thanks, again, for all you've done. I don't know how you just do such things without a care in the world, but it's something that I think I needed. Which feels daft to say. I've never wanted anything other than Lady Freyja and Triandra's company, and you're but one of innumerable wretched humans. And yet, I don't know. Your company was preferable, at least. I've never been used to anyone looking out for me, much less a human.

It's strange, to even consider a human a...well, I don't know what we were. Probably friends, which just proves I shouldn't be making them. All of this has been hanging on the fact that I can't see anyone's repulsive dreams, and I know the second I see them again, I'll go back to hating all of you left. But I don't know. It feels like I've seen a different side of all of you here.

Maybe I was wrong about you all I don't know what else to say. I don't even know if you'll read this. Just try not to die, or I'll make sure you regret it if we meet again.

Constantine

[paucipan]

I don't know how to start this. I guess I'll just start with the fact that you were probably right; I died doing something stupid and short sighted, or I've just betrayed you all. Or both. You can probably have a good laugh about that.

Even so, you were a strange human. I don't think I'll ever understand someone like you, and I'm not sure if I want to entirely. But thanks for drinking with me, after Sylvando died. And I don't know, being decent, sometimes. I still want to punch you sometimes for your reckless behavior and inability to keep your mouth shut, but you're at least honest. Whether you probably want to be or not.

If you end up where I am, I'm going to punch you, though. So don't die like a moron, got it?

And take this. It's something Sylvando gave me weeks ago, back when he performed for the ship. I honestly forgot I had it up until we needed things for the seance. Magica will likely throw it away if I don't give it to someone, so do whatever you want with it I guess. He was your friend too, after all.

[Sure enough, attached to the letter delicately is a paper flower; one that she used for the seance, last week.]

Filbo (small cw: alluded to child abuse)

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I really don't know how to start this. I guess if you've found this, then I'm dead. I'm not sure whether to apologize or not, but I've never liked making excuses for my actions.

Thanks for all you've done. I don't know what it is, but I always felt comfortable around you. Safe, even. You've been kind to me, more than I've ever felt I deserve. I'm not used to it; most of the people in my life before Lady Freyja were deeply unkind to me. To be treated as such, even after I messed up horribly and deserved derision...

Well, thank you. It means more to me than you might think.

I hope it isn't too much trouble to put upon you, but do you mind looking after B.B. for me when I'm gone? It's probably going to be sitting on my bed, on a little pillow I made for it. You were definitely right about it simply being able to survive, if nothing else. It's been nice to raise it. I've never met something with such unconditional love.

Just make sure you give it lots of chocolate. It truly loves it, and I admit I may have been spoiling it just a bit...

Even so, don't you dare die, alright? There are people waiting for you that will miss you dearly, Mayor Fiddlepie. I believe in you.

Magica

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I'm not going to waste time with sentimental words, statements, or anything of the sort. If I've died and you managed to find this, well, enjoy your room. I suppose you've earned it and can do as you wish.

My only request is that you let the others get the letters addressed to them, if they so wish. I'm not making you play delivery. And...thanks, for being decent.

Feel free to keep any of the weapons in my storage space. Who knows? You might need them. Just try to stay alive, alright? I'm going to be very irritated with you if you show up there.

Flayn

[paucipan]

I've likely died stupidly or betrayed you all; I don't expect your forgiveness for such things, but I did want to thank you. For electing to call me a friend. It's not something I'm very used to, due to the way my life was before meeting Lady Freyja, but...I did appreciate it.

Don't you dare die; I don't want to see you where ever I go because you did something reckless, understood? I'll be very angry with you if you do so.

Zero (cw: child abuse)

[paucipan]

If you happen to be getting this, well, I'm not great at knowing what would have happened to me. I've either died in the stupidest manner possible or I've betrayed you all. Either way, you were probably right, and it's probably laughable.

I do genuinely hope that you're able to get revenge upon all of those who have wronged you, and Nunnally. I meant what I said there, that they deserve nothing but the most painful of deaths for all that they've done to you and yours. I hope that you're able to see this game through to the end so you can create that bright, peaceful future for her. And that she'll still accept you, at the end of it all, so you both can enjoy it together.

But I don't like the idea of us being on an uneven playing field, though. You've revealed so much to me, so I want to do the same.

I was born a human girl; not the Dökkálfar that you've seen the entire time. My father abandoned us when I was little, and Mother had to raise me all by herself; she was wretched beyond belief. She constantly wished me dead, and in the end, she threw me in a well and left me to die so she could be with another man. It's only due to Lady Freyja that I was able to be given a new, better life than I could have ever hoped.

Good luck, Lelouch. Don't give in to what the Captain wants; if I see you again and it's not due to some miracle, I'm punching you again.

Lady Freyja (unused)

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Lady Freyja. If you've found this, then one way or another, I have died and failed you. I apologize sincerely for doing so; know you were in my thoughts until the very end, no matter what.

There is so much I should apologize to you for. For not trusting you, when you had been tempted by that motive. For nearly killing you for such a thing, due to my own boneheadedness. I had wanted to atone for such actions by keeping you safe even more than ever, despite it all. And in doing this, in failing this, all I've done is proven that I'm still every bit as useless as the human girl you found me as.

Even so, I wish to thank you. For granting me a life even better than I could have hoped by your side. I became something even better than the useless, wretched human I once was. I wanted more than anything to tell you how much it has meant to me, that you looked at someone like me and allowed me to stand by you, always. It feels a touch embarrassing to say, but...

You have always been the closest thing to a mother that I have ever had, whether you intended it or not. Being by your side and Triandra's...it allowed me to feel like we were truly a family. And I realize how selfish this must sound, but you have always treated me with such unconditional care. It is an example I believe all others should lead by, to live with a heart as kind and full of love as yours. If the whole world could be like that...it would be a beautiful thing.

I love you Please stay safe, Lady Freyja. I am so sorry to leave your side in this game, but please keep going. Find a way to destroy that Captain, and trap him in a nightmare unending, my lady.